Chapter 17

Gary's POV

"How are you feeling?" Running my free hand through Robbie's fringe, my other hand rests against his stomach, feeling his steady breathing.
"Mmhmm... better now that i know i have you to support me...thank you for not running a mile after hearing that..." Robbie looks up at me with his reddened, tired looking eyes. "And sorry for loading it onto you like that..."
"Hey..." Brushing a finger against his smooth shaved cheek, i softly smile down at him whilst his head remains rested on my lap. "Never would i leave you...whether we're together or not... i'd never leave you, Rob...i promise you that..." Softly i place kisses along each of his knuckles, pressing the top of his hand against my cheek.
"I really hope you find someone... who deserves you..." His fingers wrap around my ear, giving it a gentle tug. Moving my hand up to the direction of my ear, i enclose my hand over his, lacing our fingers together.
"I already have found that someone... that special someone... that someone who warms my heart every time i see his face, smile, or even when i smell that over used after shave, which he's drenched in... and i couldn't be any happier right now... and i will protect him no matter what.... those bastards don't understand what's coming there way... i love you Robbie..."

Robbie stares up at me, without saying a word a tear escapes his right eye, which soaks through my jeans. He intakes a shaky breath, stroking my neck hair whilst a lop sided grin forms onto his face. "...Words cannot express how much you mean to me Gary... everything which we've been through together... just makes me fall in love with you more, but please don't bother with them... it was a long time ago... and i don't want you getting hurt... i love you too Gary..."
"Sssshhh... stop worrying..." Carefully my lips make slight contact with his, the kiss merely lasts for more than 3 seconds... if you can even call that a 'kiss'. Our eyes gaze into one another's, as i feel the blood  pump in my heart a little faster. Using the back of his hand, he strokes against my stubble.
"You're beautiful, Gaz..."
My cheeks throb slightly feeling them burn from blushing. "Erm...d...do you want a drink?"
"Sure..." Lifting his head he allows me to shyly escape to the kitchen. The cold air from the open kitchen window blows against my cheeks cooling me down instantly. Opening the cupboards, i find a bottle of red wine hidden at the back behind random canned food. Looking around me in case Robbie walks in, i unscrew the lid, before taking a gulp of it.
"Ahh..." I smack my lips together, wiping my mouth with the back of my hand. It hardly calms my nerves, but it's better than making a complete fool of myself in front of the man i'm falling in love with. Flicking the kettle on i rest my hands against the side of the sink with my eyes firmly closed, breathing in the icy air in through my nostrils.

Out of nowhere a pair of hands wrap around my waist, causing my eyes to instantly snap open whilst almost jumping out of my skin. Glancing down towards my stomach i see a hand overlapping the other, containing ink tattooed over the fingers reading the single word 'Love'. Breathing a sigh of relief i close my eyes just lightly this time, dropping my head backwards against the figures cheek. "Bit chilly in here..." A warm breath hits against my ear, as his chin rests against the crook of my neck. "...And i see you found Jonny's wine..." Squeezing me gently, i look over at the opened wine bottle on the worktop.
"Oh...s...sorry... i saw it and-"
"Don't worry about it... he hardly touches the stuff...and i love it when your lips taste just that bit sweeter than usual." His hand snakes up to my chest, enough to feel my heart pound against my rib cage. "...Why are you tensing up on me, Gaz? Are you feeling ok?" Robbie's hands spin me on my heels, so that now we're facing one another. Glancing my eyes out of contact with the taller man, i shrug my shoulders in a child like manner as he continues to hover over me. "Gary..." Three fingers are lightly pushed under my chin, locking us into eye contact again.
"...What you told me... i feel like beating the living hell out of them, but... i also don't want to mess things up between the pair of us... i'm still not sure about my feelings... all i know is that i want you in my life."
"Then that's all what needs to be said... follow your heart... and don't over think anything... otherwise decisions will be made... which you'll soon later live to regret...and that anger... i know a way to relieve that..." Cheekily he winks at me, whilst taking a loose grip to my hand. "...Bring the wine..." Uncontrollable a smile spreads across my face, Robbie knows how to cheer me up when it's needed. Grabbing the wine bottle, we begin to walk up the stairs, and back to the now familiar bedroom.
"What if Jonny comes back earlier than expected?" I ask setting the bottle of wine down onto the bedside table, as Robbie closes and locks the bedroom door behind us.
"Then it'll make this even more exciting... wont it?" Biting his bottom lip, his fingers begin to loosen the buttons on his shirt, tugging at them freely until it reveals his toned, inked torso. Throwing his arms down by his sides, his shirt drops to his feet, as he approaches me on the bed.

Watching Robbie crawl up the bed, animal like, my fingers wrap around the bottle's neck, where i bring my lips to the rim taking a breath taking gulp of it again. Robbie's fingers play with the buttons now on my shirt, undoing them one by one, before pulling it open aggressively. One hand slides up towards my chest hair, swirling his searing finger tips around the wiry blonde hair, as a talented tongue begins to make wet trails on and around my stomach. Dropping my head backwards against the headboard i continue taking swigs from the half drained bottle, seeing Robbie's reflection through it, his piercing eyes not away looking from me. Burning desire runs through my body feeling Robbie's contact, and he knows it, he can already read me like a book. Sliding his tongue back in between his lips, he glosses them before resting onto his knees in front of me, as i just lay flat on my back. Robbie takes hold of the bottle from my weakened grip, not noticing how much of it i've already drank, my head begins to swirl from the alcohol which slowly starts to kick in. With a clink, Robbie places it back onto the bedside table, before taking each one of my wrists into his fist, rising them above my head. Our lips stroke one anothers delicately, gasping when i feel him place my hands onto his bare back. Pressing firmer over my lips, he starts to work in sync deepening the embrace turning the kiss more passionate, whilst my hand explores his muscular back, and curves of his body. The heat of the moment soon becomes more intense, feeling my jeans tighten underneath Robbie, where's he's straddled my lap with his knees pressed either side of my hips. Once our lips break contact again, but only slightly as he speaks against my parted lips, he speaks the words i've been longing for all night. "...Please... please make love to me... Gary..."   

Panting faster i rest my elbows onto the mattress, trying the best i can to sit up, not that it's working with Robbie's entire weight pushing down onto my chest and lap. "C...Can you..." Stuttering a little, my eyes edge over to my wallet which sits on the corner of the bedside table. Lifting himself off me entirely, Robbie reaches out a hand towards my wallet, with a light smirk on his face, he bites his cheek trying to disguise it. Using two fingers he slides out a blue, shiny square packet from within my wallet. For a brief moment the plastic packet stays in between his fingers, whilst his free hand tugs and loosens my belt. Bucking my hips upwards, i allow Robbie to pull down my jeans, past my ankles, until they fully leave my skin. Doing the same with my briefs, the only slight difference is, instead of removing them with his free hand, this time he removes my final piece of clothing with nothing more than his teeth. Whilst pulling them down my legs his lip brushes against my inner thigh, causing me to clench my chattering teeth, feeling my body yearning for him even more. My erection pushes up towards my navel, as the tip strokes against my lower stomach. Robbie skillfully begins to unwrap the condom, tossing the plastic covering over his shoulder to the end of the bed. Placing the cold circular sheeting over my tip, he covers it gently with his lips. Taking me whole very slowly putting the condom on with his mouth. "F...fuck...Rob..." Tightly, my hand tugs at strands of his hair pulling a fistful of it, as his mouth starts to bob in a rhythmic pattern until it's safely secured.