Gary's POV
Resting his chin against my thigh, he stares up at me, as a finger trails down my length. There's no talking, only heavy breathing... on my behalf. A warm palm cups me, whilst his fingertips begin to tickle me slightly. "R...Rob..." Faintly i whisper, feeling my body burn and sweat from his contact. A slick finger brushes against my entrance, before wiggling it's way inside. Adding finger by finger joining the first, the thickness of Robbie's fingers stretch and widen me, as he begins probing, searching deeper for my prostate. Raising my knees they rest against Robbie's temples, as his fingers continue to explore and pulsate inside of me.
"...Good?" Finally Robbie speaks, his voice alone is enough to drive me insane, feeling his cheek nuzzle against my covered throbbing erection, which twitches almost begging for attention. Not saying a word, i throw my head forcefully backwards, which ends up making hard contact with the metal headboard behind. Robbie twists and turns his fingers in all angles allowing me to tighten around them, until surprisingly he abruptly pulls away, making me gasp for breath. Exhaling a deep breath i feel my body slowly deflate, but panting faster. Stepping off the bed now, Robbie unhooks his belt buckle, acting as if it's a strip tease in a cheap night club. Starting by peeling down his jeans at the same time as removing his boxers, he kicks them out of sight, possibly under the bed. Swallowing hard, i stare at the naked figure standing just inches away from where i'm laying. "Ready...?" Shyly he smiles over at me.
"More than ever..." Grunting slightly, i shift my hips to his direction, so we're stood in front of one another. A hand scoops around to the back of my head, massaging the gentle ache from where i hit my head against the headboard.
Pulling our bodies closer, my sealed member slides against his semi- hard erection, nuzzling and stroking up against one another like reunited friends. Fingertips glide down my spine, moving south towards my backside where he gives it a hard slap using both hands, causing the sound to echo around the bedroom leaving a burning sensation onto my skin. Squeezing me tightly, our lips connect like glue, this time there's no need for a build up we both know exactly what we want now. Kissing hungrily, Robbie still keeps my backside pressed against his hands, as he slowly walks me backwards until i fall back onto the bed, dragging him with me. We both quietly laugh against each others lips, moving into position i roll onto the left side of my hip, Robbie however has found enough energy to crawl onto his knees, almost like he's praying with the side of his face pushed against the pillows. Shuffling on my knees towards his muscular figure, i stroke a single finger in between his thighs spreading his legs apart. Obeying my silent instruction, Robbie is ready noticing him reach for the headboard, whilst lowering his back. Teasing his entrance gently, i rub the head of my erection against it hearing a quiet whimper leave the younger man's lips. Very carefully i begin to sink inside of him, his muscles clench around me. "Argh...Rob..." Gritting my teeth together, i push as far as i possibly can where i just rest there for a moment or two.
"G...Gaz...please..." Robbie breaks the silence with a shaky voice lifting his head over his shoulder. My hands take either side of his hips, as i begin to create a speedy pace. "F...f..fuck.." A throaty groan leaves his parted lips, whilst his hands take a fistful of the duvet, turning his knuckles white instantly.
"Come...come on Rob..." Our skin hits together causing the room to quietly echo, recreating his hard slap against my backside from earlier, this time more frequent and not as loud. Pulling Robbie's hips backwards we fit like a jigsaw working in tandem. A hard plunge of my hips cracking against his backside draws a cry from both of our lips, as i feel myself begin to release. Frowning my face with all my strength i continue pounding inside of his exposed backside.
"Come...come...Gaz...come..." Robbie demands, as sweat trickles down his neck. Gripping the back of his head, i pull strands of his hair enough for me to see his face, twisting it in between my fingers. "...I want it all..." Hearing Robbie's final words i finally explode inside of him, again and again making me see stars almost.
"Yeeeees Rob..." Hissing through my teeth i remain inside of him, aiming to take Robbie's orgasm the same as mine. Robbie begs, cries even for more, as he releases a gentle sob against the pillow. Catching my attention, wait... he's crying?! "Rob?!" Instantly i pull out jumping to the side of him, cupping his face into my hands. "Robbie?! Have i hurt you? Oh jeez... Rob i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry..."
"N...N...no..." Squinting his eyes together, a few tears roll down his face and neck. "I...I...just...you...you just make it so perfect... you make me feel safe..." Breathing a sigh of relief i wrap my arms tightly around his fragile body. Maybe it was a bit too soon after he told me about his scarred past. Not saying a word i take the duvet from underneath him, wrapping both of naked bodies under it. "S...sorry...to disappoint you... you can carry on if you like." He mumbles looking up at me with sad, tired looking eyes.
"Will you stop apologising...and don't say that..." Caressing his cheek, i wipe away his loose tears with my thumb. "It's always special when it's with you... next time... i promise to make it more romantic... instead of making it feel too rushed for you... sorry..."
Shaking his head he plants a kiss against my damp forehead. "So.. we've gone from a thank you band... to an apologising couple..." Giggling softly i pull him closer, pecking him on the lips.
"New band name i guess... has a ring to it... i must admit..."
"As long as it means i get more leads..." Trying to act innocent, Robbie winks at me.
"Depends what you mean by more leads." Licking my lips cheekily, my hand strokes against his stomach. Robbie nuzzles closer to me, placing his head against my shoulder where he inhales a deep breath.
"It's gonna be hard sneaking around when we're touring... i usually share a room with Markie..."
"I'm sure he wouldn't mind missing out on your company, but then again i know how irresistible you are..." Sweetly i smile at him, as we stare deeply into one anothers eyes. All of a sudden a loud slam of a door downstairs breaks our gaze. My pupils grow, as i hear footsteps along the wooden floor. "Oh s-" Robbie's hand covers my mouth, muffling my speech.
"Shhh..." He places a finger against his own lips, whilst keeping his hand over my opened mouth.
"Rob? Are you in here? I've tried ringing you all night! Come on, open up." A voice speaks in an annoyed tone outside the bedroom door. Jonny's home.
I close my eyes I can still see your face...
Friday, 31 January 2014
Thursday, 30 January 2014
Chapter 17
Gary's POV
"How are you feeling?" Running my free hand through Robbie's fringe, my other hand rests against his stomach, feeling his steady breathing.
"Mmhmm... better now that i know i have you to support me...thank you for not running a mile after hearing that..." Robbie looks up at me with his reddened, tired looking eyes. "And sorry for loading it onto you like that..."
"Hey..." Brushing a finger against his smooth shaved cheek, i softly smile down at him whilst his head remains rested on my lap. "Never would i leave you...whether we're together or not... i'd never leave you, Rob...i promise you that..." Softly i place kisses along each of his knuckles, pressing the top of his hand against my cheek.
"I really hope you find someone... who deserves you..." His fingers wrap around my ear, giving it a gentle tug. Moving my hand up to the direction of my ear, i enclose my hand over his, lacing our fingers together.
"I already have found that someone... that special someone... that someone who warms my heart every time i see his face, smile, or even when i smell that over used after shave, which he's drenched in... and i couldn't be any happier right now... and i will protect him no matter what.... those bastards don't understand what's coming there way... i love you Robbie..."
Robbie stares up at me, without saying a word a tear escapes his right eye, which soaks through my jeans. He intakes a shaky breath, stroking my neck hair whilst a lop sided grin forms onto his face. "...Words cannot express how much you mean to me Gary... everything which we've been through together... just makes me fall in love with you more, but please don't bother with them... it was a long time ago... and i don't want you getting hurt... i love you too Gary..."
"Sssshhh... stop worrying..." Carefully my lips make slight contact with his, the kiss merely lasts for more than 3 seconds... if you can even call that a 'kiss'. Our eyes gaze into one another's, as i feel the blood pump in my heart a little faster. Using the back of his hand, he strokes against my stubble.
"You're beautiful, Gaz..."
My cheeks throb slightly feeling them burn from blushing. "Erm...d...do you want a drink?"
"Sure..." Lifting his head he allows me to shyly escape to the kitchen. The cold air from the open kitchen window blows against my cheeks cooling me down instantly. Opening the cupboards, i find a bottle of red wine hidden at the back behind random canned food. Looking around me in case Robbie walks in, i unscrew the lid, before taking a gulp of it.
"Ahh..." I smack my lips together, wiping my mouth with the back of my hand. It hardly calms my nerves, but it's better than making a complete fool of myself in front of the man i'm falling in love with. Flicking the kettle on i rest my hands against the side of the sink with my eyes firmly closed, breathing in the icy air in through my nostrils.
Out of nowhere a pair of hands wrap around my waist, causing my eyes to instantly snap open whilst almost jumping out of my skin. Glancing down towards my stomach i see a hand overlapping the other, containing ink tattooed over the fingers reading the single word 'Love'. Breathing a sigh of relief i close my eyes just lightly this time, dropping my head backwards against the figures cheek. "Bit chilly in here..." A warm breath hits against my ear, as his chin rests against the crook of my neck. "...And i see you found Jonny's wine..." Squeezing me gently, i look over at the opened wine bottle on the worktop.
"Oh...s...sorry... i saw it and-"
"Don't worry about it... he hardly touches the stuff...and i love it when your lips taste just that bit sweeter than usual." His hand snakes up to my chest, enough to feel my heart pound against my rib cage. "...Why are you tensing up on me, Gaz? Are you feeling ok?" Robbie's hands spin me on my heels, so that now we're facing one another. Glancing my eyes out of contact with the taller man, i shrug my shoulders in a child like manner as he continues to hover over me. "Gary..." Three fingers are lightly pushed under my chin, locking us into eye contact again.
"...What you told me... i feel like beating the living hell out of them, but... i also don't want to mess things up between the pair of us... i'm still not sure about my feelings... all i know is that i want you in my life."
"Then that's all what needs to be said... follow your heart... and don't over think anything... otherwise decisions will be made... which you'll soon later live to regret...and that anger... i know a way to relieve that..." Cheekily he winks at me, whilst taking a loose grip to my hand. "...Bring the wine..." Uncontrollable a smile spreads across my face, Robbie knows how to cheer me up when it's needed. Grabbing the wine bottle, we begin to walk up the stairs, and back to the now familiar bedroom.
"What if Jonny comes back earlier than expected?" I ask setting the bottle of wine down onto the bedside table, as Robbie closes and locks the bedroom door behind us.
"Then it'll make this even more exciting... wont it?" Biting his bottom lip, his fingers begin to loosen the buttons on his shirt, tugging at them freely until it reveals his toned, inked torso. Throwing his arms down by his sides, his shirt drops to his feet, as he approaches me on the bed.
Watching Robbie crawl up the bed, animal like, my fingers wrap around the bottle's neck, where i bring my lips to the rim taking a breath taking gulp of it again. Robbie's fingers play with the buttons now on my shirt, undoing them one by one, before pulling it open aggressively. One hand slides up towards my chest hair, swirling his searing finger tips around the wiry blonde hair, as a talented tongue begins to make wet trails on and around my stomach. Dropping my head backwards against the headboard i continue taking swigs from the half drained bottle, seeing Robbie's reflection through it, his piercing eyes not away looking from me. Burning desire runs through my body feeling Robbie's contact, and he knows it, he can already read me like a book. Sliding his tongue back in between his lips, he glosses them before resting onto his knees in front of me, as i just lay flat on my back. Robbie takes hold of the bottle from my weakened grip, not noticing how much of it i've already drank, my head begins to swirl from the alcohol which slowly starts to kick in. With a clink, Robbie places it back onto the bedside table, before taking each one of my wrists into his fist, rising them above my head. Our lips stroke one anothers delicately, gasping when i feel him place my hands onto his bare back. Pressing firmer over my lips, he starts to work in sync deepening the embrace turning the kiss more passionate, whilst my hand explores his muscular back, and curves of his body. The heat of the moment soon becomes more intense, feeling my jeans tighten underneath Robbie, where's he's straddled my lap with his knees pressed either side of my hips. Once our lips break contact again, but only slightly as he speaks against my parted lips, he speaks the words i've been longing for all night. "...Please... please make love to me... Gary..."
Panting faster i rest my elbows onto the mattress, trying the best i can to sit up, not that it's working with Robbie's entire weight pushing down onto my chest and lap. "C...Can you..." Stuttering a little, my eyes edge over to my wallet which sits on the corner of the bedside table. Lifting himself off me entirely, Robbie reaches out a hand towards my wallet, with a light smirk on his face, he bites his cheek trying to disguise it. Using two fingers he slides out a blue, shiny square packet from within my wallet. For a brief moment the plastic packet stays in between his fingers, whilst his free hand tugs and loosens my belt. Bucking my hips upwards, i allow Robbie to pull down my jeans, past my ankles, until they fully leave my skin. Doing the same with my briefs, the only slight difference is, instead of removing them with his free hand, this time he removes my final piece of clothing with nothing more than his teeth. Whilst pulling them down my legs his lip brushes against my inner thigh, causing me to clench my chattering teeth, feeling my body yearning for him even more. My erection pushes up towards my navel, as the tip strokes against my lower stomach. Robbie skillfully begins to unwrap the condom, tossing the plastic covering over his shoulder to the end of the bed. Placing the cold circular sheeting over my tip, he covers it gently with his lips. Taking me whole very slowly putting the condom on with his mouth. "F...fuck...Rob..." Tightly, my hand tugs at strands of his hair pulling a fistful of it, as his mouth starts to bob in a rhythmic pattern until it's safely secured.
"How are you feeling?" Running my free hand through Robbie's fringe, my other hand rests against his stomach, feeling his steady breathing.
"Mmhmm... better now that i know i have you to support me...thank you for not running a mile after hearing that..." Robbie looks up at me with his reddened, tired looking eyes. "And sorry for loading it onto you like that..."
"Hey..." Brushing a finger against his smooth shaved cheek, i softly smile down at him whilst his head remains rested on my lap. "Never would i leave you...whether we're together or not... i'd never leave you, Rob...i promise you that..." Softly i place kisses along each of his knuckles, pressing the top of his hand against my cheek.
"I really hope you find someone... who deserves you..." His fingers wrap around my ear, giving it a gentle tug. Moving my hand up to the direction of my ear, i enclose my hand over his, lacing our fingers together.
"I already have found that someone... that special someone... that someone who warms my heart every time i see his face, smile, or even when i smell that over used after shave, which he's drenched in... and i couldn't be any happier right now... and i will protect him no matter what.... those bastards don't understand what's coming there way... i love you Robbie..."
Robbie stares up at me, without saying a word a tear escapes his right eye, which soaks through my jeans. He intakes a shaky breath, stroking my neck hair whilst a lop sided grin forms onto his face. "...Words cannot express how much you mean to me Gary... everything which we've been through together... just makes me fall in love with you more, but please don't bother with them... it was a long time ago... and i don't want you getting hurt... i love you too Gary..."
"Sssshhh... stop worrying..." Carefully my lips make slight contact with his, the kiss merely lasts for more than 3 seconds... if you can even call that a 'kiss'. Our eyes gaze into one another's, as i feel the blood pump in my heart a little faster. Using the back of his hand, he strokes against my stubble.
"You're beautiful, Gaz..."
My cheeks throb slightly feeling them burn from blushing. "Erm...d...do you want a drink?"
"Sure..." Lifting his head he allows me to shyly escape to the kitchen. The cold air from the open kitchen window blows against my cheeks cooling me down instantly. Opening the cupboards, i find a bottle of red wine hidden at the back behind random canned food. Looking around me in case Robbie walks in, i unscrew the lid, before taking a gulp of it.
"Ahh..." I smack my lips together, wiping my mouth with the back of my hand. It hardly calms my nerves, but it's better than making a complete fool of myself in front of the man i'm falling in love with. Flicking the kettle on i rest my hands against the side of the sink with my eyes firmly closed, breathing in the icy air in through my nostrils.
Out of nowhere a pair of hands wrap around my waist, causing my eyes to instantly snap open whilst almost jumping out of my skin. Glancing down towards my stomach i see a hand overlapping the other, containing ink tattooed over the fingers reading the single word 'Love'. Breathing a sigh of relief i close my eyes just lightly this time, dropping my head backwards against the figures cheek. "Bit chilly in here..." A warm breath hits against my ear, as his chin rests against the crook of my neck. "...And i see you found Jonny's wine..." Squeezing me gently, i look over at the opened wine bottle on the worktop.
"Oh...s...sorry... i saw it and-"
"Don't worry about it... he hardly touches the stuff...and i love it when your lips taste just that bit sweeter than usual." His hand snakes up to my chest, enough to feel my heart pound against my rib cage. "...Why are you tensing up on me, Gaz? Are you feeling ok?" Robbie's hands spin me on my heels, so that now we're facing one another. Glancing my eyes out of contact with the taller man, i shrug my shoulders in a child like manner as he continues to hover over me. "Gary..." Three fingers are lightly pushed under my chin, locking us into eye contact again.
"...What you told me... i feel like beating the living hell out of them, but... i also don't want to mess things up between the pair of us... i'm still not sure about my feelings... all i know is that i want you in my life."
"Then that's all what needs to be said... follow your heart... and don't over think anything... otherwise decisions will be made... which you'll soon later live to regret...and that anger... i know a way to relieve that..." Cheekily he winks at me, whilst taking a loose grip to my hand. "...Bring the wine..." Uncontrollable a smile spreads across my face, Robbie knows how to cheer me up when it's needed. Grabbing the wine bottle, we begin to walk up the stairs, and back to the now familiar bedroom.
"What if Jonny comes back earlier than expected?" I ask setting the bottle of wine down onto the bedside table, as Robbie closes and locks the bedroom door behind us.
"Then it'll make this even more exciting... wont it?" Biting his bottom lip, his fingers begin to loosen the buttons on his shirt, tugging at them freely until it reveals his toned, inked torso. Throwing his arms down by his sides, his shirt drops to his feet, as he approaches me on the bed.
Watching Robbie crawl up the bed, animal like, my fingers wrap around the bottle's neck, where i bring my lips to the rim taking a breath taking gulp of it again. Robbie's fingers play with the buttons now on my shirt, undoing them one by one, before pulling it open aggressively. One hand slides up towards my chest hair, swirling his searing finger tips around the wiry blonde hair, as a talented tongue begins to make wet trails on and around my stomach. Dropping my head backwards against the headboard i continue taking swigs from the half drained bottle, seeing Robbie's reflection through it, his piercing eyes not away looking from me. Burning desire runs through my body feeling Robbie's contact, and he knows it, he can already read me like a book. Sliding his tongue back in between his lips, he glosses them before resting onto his knees in front of me, as i just lay flat on my back. Robbie takes hold of the bottle from my weakened grip, not noticing how much of it i've already drank, my head begins to swirl from the alcohol which slowly starts to kick in. With a clink, Robbie places it back onto the bedside table, before taking each one of my wrists into his fist, rising them above my head. Our lips stroke one anothers delicately, gasping when i feel him place my hands onto his bare back. Pressing firmer over my lips, he starts to work in sync deepening the embrace turning the kiss more passionate, whilst my hand explores his muscular back, and curves of his body. The heat of the moment soon becomes more intense, feeling my jeans tighten underneath Robbie, where's he's straddled my lap with his knees pressed either side of my hips. Once our lips break contact again, but only slightly as he speaks against my parted lips, he speaks the words i've been longing for all night. "...Please... please make love to me... Gary..."
Panting faster i rest my elbows onto the mattress, trying the best i can to sit up, not that it's working with Robbie's entire weight pushing down onto my chest and lap. "C...Can you..." Stuttering a little, my eyes edge over to my wallet which sits on the corner of the bedside table. Lifting himself off me entirely, Robbie reaches out a hand towards my wallet, with a light smirk on his face, he bites his cheek trying to disguise it. Using two fingers he slides out a blue, shiny square packet from within my wallet. For a brief moment the plastic packet stays in between his fingers, whilst his free hand tugs and loosens my belt. Bucking my hips upwards, i allow Robbie to pull down my jeans, past my ankles, until they fully leave my skin. Doing the same with my briefs, the only slight difference is, instead of removing them with his free hand, this time he removes my final piece of clothing with nothing more than his teeth. Whilst pulling them down my legs his lip brushes against my inner thigh, causing me to clench my chattering teeth, feeling my body yearning for him even more. My erection pushes up towards my navel, as the tip strokes against my lower stomach. Robbie skillfully begins to unwrap the condom, tossing the plastic covering over his shoulder to the end of the bed. Placing the cold circular sheeting over my tip, he covers it gently with his lips. Taking me whole very slowly putting the condom on with his mouth. "F...fuck...Rob..." Tightly, my hand tugs at strands of his hair pulling a fistful of it, as his mouth starts to bob in a rhythmic pattern until it's safely secured.
Sunday, 19 January 2014
Chapter 16
Gary's POV
"Sit down, Gaz...please..." The colour fades from Robbie's face, as it begins to fill with nerves. Not taking my eyes from the younger male, i take a seat onto the sofa, where seconds later Robbie decides to join me. Studying his face i get a sense of guilt.
"It was one of the lads...wasn't it? I should of known...You and Mark have always been close the first time around..."
Robbie frowns his eyebrows, but not looking surprised with my answer. "What? No... of course it's not Mark."
"Well if it wasn't Mark then who? Howard? Jason? Or maybe it was a drunken foursome... it wouldn't surprise me..."
"Wow... thanks, Gaz...make me feel better about it why don't you, and no it wasn't a foursome with any of the lads."
Sighing softly i take Robbie's hands in mine. "...I didn't mean that... sorry...please go on?" Swallowing hard he takes a deep breath, whilst firmly closing his eye lids together.
"It was about 19 years ago... we were performing 'Do What You Like' after the meet and greet...remember?"
Rising my eyebrows i keep his hands in mine. "Erm...vaguely...that was quite sometime ago though..."
"Yes...it was...but memories don't leave you..." Judging by Robbie's face, i can tell this is hurting him, but it's good that he trusts me enough to tell me. "...Anyway... you lot had just finished getting dressed...well apart from Howard he decided to go back home wearing the cod piece and leathers...typical." He laughs nervously. "...Before the gig at the meet and greet...i got talking to one of the girls there, so we decided to meet up after the gig... you know...once you four had left, i was alone in the changing rooms...well i thought i was." Thinking for a second he clenches his teeth together."...S...sorry...i can't do this..." Like a rabbit in head lights Robbie begins to panic, as the memories come flooding back into his mind.
"Rob...i'm here...i'm here to support you...i wont judge you...ever... don't keep it locked up in your mind..." Circling my thumbs over his hands he watches them, trying to calm back down.
"W...well... i was packing away...until... until i heard that voice. Every time i was to hear it, i felt like punching his lights out."
Searching Robbie's face for answers i hold his hands tighter. "W..who?"
Not finding enough courage to look me in the eyes, he keeps them focus on our hands. "N...Nigel..." He replies with a bitter tone. It takes a few minutes until i'm able to speak again from the shock.
"N...Nigel...it was Nigel?!"
"...Sort of...i guess...probably... no..." Robbie shrugs his shoulders pulling his hands back into his lap.
"You're not making sense? You just said it was Nigel, now you're saying it's not? Robbie this isn't a joke, did he hurt you?"
"He always hurt me, didn't he?"
I hold my hands against my head, tenderly massaging my aching temples. "That doesn't have anything to do with what we're talking about... who was the guy you had your first time with? If i know him just say... if you want any kind of relationship i want you to be honest with me..."
"You don't know him... i don't think you do..."
"Right... so who was it? What was his name...?" My hands remain attached to my face, whilst i try and pay attention to Robbie's complicated story.
"I...I...I don't know..." Bowing his head in shame, he breathes a deep sigh.
"Oh i give up... if you're not going to be honest with me then i'm not sticking around here anymore." Standing to my feet i march over to the living room door.
"He hurt me Gary!" Robbie calls behind me before i get chance to reach for the door handle. "...N...Nigel's...it was Nigel's friend... they...they forced me...both of them... Nigel left me with him...and that's when the guy...he...he... " Failing to hold back the tears any longer, Robbie heavily sobs against his hands.
Blinking my eyes a few times, i turn on my heels, making my way back over to the sofa. "Oh...Oh...Rob...come here..." Wrapping an arm around him tightly, i rest his head against my chest where he continues to cry. "...I'm so..so sorry..." Seeing Robbie hurt brings sadness to my heart, and anger. "...I wish you told me back then...did you tell any of the lads...?"
"N...No...of...of course i didn't... Nigel was our manager...i couldn't grass his mate up could i? I'd be out of a job... as much as i hated the first time around, i had no choice but to keep hold of it... and it wasn't really a thing to talk about was it...? God i'm pathetic... bawling my eyes out in front of you...i'm sorry...for everything... i understand if you walk away...i really do..."
Shaking my head a little annoyed with his response, i run my fingers through his sweaty fringe. "Never have i thought that you're pathetic...and especially not after hearing this... you're a strong man, Robbie... keeping this to yourself after all these years... i promise you that whilst i'm walking this earth no one, and i mean no one is ever going to lay a finger on you again...i love you Robbie...i'm going to protect you...i... i want to spend my life with you..." Gently i kiss his forehead, before pulling him into my arms, rocking him against my chest. I don't care how long it's been since the day it happened...neither of them are going to get away with doing that to Robbie... Even if Nigel wasn't the one who did it... He still played a part in it...
"Sit down, Gaz...please..." The colour fades from Robbie's face, as it begins to fill with nerves. Not taking my eyes from the younger male, i take a seat onto the sofa, where seconds later Robbie decides to join me. Studying his face i get a sense of guilt.
"It was one of the lads...wasn't it? I should of known...You and Mark have always been close the first time around..."
Robbie frowns his eyebrows, but not looking surprised with my answer. "What? No... of course it's not Mark."
"Well if it wasn't Mark then who? Howard? Jason? Or maybe it was a drunken foursome... it wouldn't surprise me..."
"Wow... thanks, Gaz...make me feel better about it why don't you, and no it wasn't a foursome with any of the lads."
Sighing softly i take Robbie's hands in mine. "...I didn't mean that... sorry...please go on?" Swallowing hard he takes a deep breath, whilst firmly closing his eye lids together.
"It was about 19 years ago... we were performing 'Do What You Like' after the meet and greet...remember?"
Rising my eyebrows i keep his hands in mine. "Erm...vaguely...that was quite sometime ago though..."
"Yes...it was...but memories don't leave you..." Judging by Robbie's face, i can tell this is hurting him, but it's good that he trusts me enough to tell me. "...Anyway... you lot had just finished getting dressed...well apart from Howard he decided to go back home wearing the cod piece and leathers...typical." He laughs nervously. "...Before the gig at the meet and greet...i got talking to one of the girls there, so we decided to meet up after the gig... you know...once you four had left, i was alone in the changing rooms...well i thought i was." Thinking for a second he clenches his teeth together."...S...sorry...i can't do this..." Like a rabbit in head lights Robbie begins to panic, as the memories come flooding back into his mind.
"Rob...i'm here...i'm here to support you...i wont judge you...ever... don't keep it locked up in your mind..." Circling my thumbs over his hands he watches them, trying to calm back down.
"W...well... i was packing away...until... until i heard that voice. Every time i was to hear it, i felt like punching his lights out."
Searching Robbie's face for answers i hold his hands tighter. "W..who?"
Not finding enough courage to look me in the eyes, he keeps them focus on our hands. "N...Nigel..." He replies with a bitter tone. It takes a few minutes until i'm able to speak again from the shock.
"N...Nigel...it was Nigel?!"
"...Sort of...i guess...probably... no..." Robbie shrugs his shoulders pulling his hands back into his lap.
"You're not making sense? You just said it was Nigel, now you're saying it's not? Robbie this isn't a joke, did he hurt you?"
"He always hurt me, didn't he?"
I hold my hands against my head, tenderly massaging my aching temples. "That doesn't have anything to do with what we're talking about... who was the guy you had your first time with? If i know him just say... if you want any kind of relationship i want you to be honest with me..."
"You don't know him... i don't think you do..."
"Right... so who was it? What was his name...?" My hands remain attached to my face, whilst i try and pay attention to Robbie's complicated story.
"I...I...I don't know..." Bowing his head in shame, he breathes a deep sigh.
"Oh i give up... if you're not going to be honest with me then i'm not sticking around here anymore." Standing to my feet i march over to the living room door.
"He hurt me Gary!" Robbie calls behind me before i get chance to reach for the door handle. "...N...Nigel's...it was Nigel's friend... they...they forced me...both of them... Nigel left me with him...and that's when the guy...he...he... " Failing to hold back the tears any longer, Robbie heavily sobs against his hands.
Blinking my eyes a few times, i turn on my heels, making my way back over to the sofa. "Oh...Oh...Rob...come here..." Wrapping an arm around him tightly, i rest his head against my chest where he continues to cry. "...I'm so..so sorry..." Seeing Robbie hurt brings sadness to my heart, and anger. "...I wish you told me back then...did you tell any of the lads...?"
"N...No...of...of course i didn't... Nigel was our manager...i couldn't grass his mate up could i? I'd be out of a job... as much as i hated the first time around, i had no choice but to keep hold of it... and it wasn't really a thing to talk about was it...? God i'm pathetic... bawling my eyes out in front of you...i'm sorry...for everything... i understand if you walk away...i really do..."
Shaking my head a little annoyed with his response, i run my fingers through his sweaty fringe. "Never have i thought that you're pathetic...and especially not after hearing this... you're a strong man, Robbie... keeping this to yourself after all these years... i promise you that whilst i'm walking this earth no one, and i mean no one is ever going to lay a finger on you again...i love you Robbie...i'm going to protect you...i... i want to spend my life with you..." Gently i kiss his forehead, before pulling him into my arms, rocking him against my chest. I don't care how long it's been since the day it happened...neither of them are going to get away with doing that to Robbie... Even if Nigel wasn't the one who did it... He still played a part in it...
Monday, 13 January 2014
Chapter 15
Gary's POV
Stirring in my sleep i roll over to the edge of the bed. "Rob..." Softly i moan spreading my arm behind me reaching for his figure. Surprisingly the bed is empty and the space beside me is cold. My eyes snap open noticing that his clothes have also gone. He hasn't done a runner...has he? Last night was the first time we have had sex...what if he didn't enjoy it, and now that's it? I shake my head brushing away the negative thoughts, knowing Robbie he's probably downstairs making breakfast. Grabbing hold of my creased clothing i throw them onto my naked body carelessly. Tip toeing down the carpet stairs i peer my head over the banister searching around the kitchen- it's empty. "Where the hell is he?" I mutter whilst walking into the kitchen feeling the icy cold tiles make contact with my bare feet. He's actually gone, hasn't he? Feeling used and slightly embarrassed i switch on the kettle before cupping my face. I should of known...god i'm such a fool. Tears spring to my eyes. Why did i even let myself get attached to him? Once the kettle is boiled i make myself a strong black coffee whilst reaching for my mobile from my back pocket. He's got questions which need to be answered. Sitting down at the breakfast table i dial his number. 'Hello this is Rob's phone. Sorry i can't make your call right now, but please leave a message and i'll get back to ya!' Well isn't this just great?! I'm stuck in some random guy's house and i can't even find my shoes! "Fuck it!" Taking a tight grip to my mobile i forcefully throw it against the wall. My hands trail down my face resting against my eyes as i breathe a quiet sob.
5 minutes pass which feels like a life, hearing the front door knocks me off guard. Worry fills through my body causing it to freeze... is it the owner?! "Gaz? Are you awake yet?" Robbie's voice echoes down the hallway. Breathing a sigh of relief i brush away the loose tears before taking a gulp of my coffee. "Gareth Barlow wakey wakey!" He laughs walking towards the kitchen. Once he opens the creaky kitchen door i hear a loud gasp of surprise when he notices me sat at the table. "Fuck! Jesus Christ Gary... almost gave me a heart attack! How long have you been awake for?!" Not moving a muscle i continue to stare at the steam evaporating from my mug. "...Gary?" A hand appears in front of my eyes which causes me to look up. Robbie stands beside me, his quiff has fallen partly over his eyes which the wind has made a little messy, and his cheeks are a little flushed from the coldness outside. "Aah i see... grumpy in the morning eh? Well you wont be after i've cooked you a fry up! If i don't burn it again that is." He moves his lips towards my cheek which i quickly move out of contact. "...wow... you really are grumpy... sure you're ok?"
"I'm fine."
"Very blunt this morning Mister Barlow." He chuckles reaching out to my hand.
"Will you just leave me alone?!" Pushing back my chair i march out of the kitchen heading for the living room, where i stand looking out of the window. Within seconds footsteps follow me even though he hasn't spoken yet i can feel Robbie's presence. I'm over reacting i know, but it's not my fault. He left without saying a word after we slept together... and the fact that this isn't even our house what would of happened if the owner was to come back? God knows how i would of got myself out of that one.
"Gaz...mate...come on... what is it? And don't say nothing... i might not be the brightest person on this planet, but i know there's something upsetting you." A hand strokes along my spine, feeling Robbie's warm touch causes me to surrender.
"You...You left without saying anything..." Quietly i mumble barely audible.
"I went to pick a few things up from the shop... there's nothing in to eat... and i know that you will tell me off if we leave without having breakfast."
"That's not the point Rob... we could of gone together... or you could of at least woke me... i mean... leaving without saying a word after we...er...you know." Sighing softly i bow my head feeling pathetic for overreacting, this isn't like me.
Robbie frowns his eyebrows absorbing my words."When you put it like that... oh Gaz... i didn't think... you were asleep and looked peaceful. I didn't want to disturb you...i don't regret last night... not at all... you made me feel safe..." Wrapping his arms around my waist he pulls me closer. "...I can't thank you enough really." It's almost like i can't control my body as i rest against his chest.
"...You gave me the cold shoulder too...after i asked you that question. How am i meant to take this relationship seriously when it feels like you're hiding something?" Making eye contact with Robbie his eyes quickly avoid mine tightening the grip around me.
"I...I don't know what question that was... i was just knackered last night... it was a long day...that was all."
"Right... seeing as you're awake now are you going to be honest with me? If not...then there's always the door to walk out of and we can break this future album off... the lads will understand."
The room falls silent for at least 5 minutes the only sound which can be heard is the loud ticking of the clock which hangs above the fireplace. "...I can't loose you...and i can't let the lads down...not again... if you can be honest with me...then i'm going to be honest with you... ask away..." As soon as the words leave his mouth i know he instantly regrets saying it.
Taking a deep breath i study his face." You already know that you're the first man i've slept with, but am i the first person you've slept with... the first male...?" Tension fills the room, so thick that it could easily be cut with a knife. It's clear that he's done this before, maybe more than once it's showing all over his face even if he is avoiding eye contact. Why didn't he just say? "...I'm not...am i?"
Massaging his temples like he's smoothing an on coming headache he closes his eyes for a brief moment. "I...i'm going to be honest with you...please...please sit down." Swallowing hard his eyes slowly fix to mine showing sadness. Even though he hasn't told me the story of who yet, already i can sense something doesn't feel right about it.
Stirring in my sleep i roll over to the edge of the bed. "Rob..." Softly i moan spreading my arm behind me reaching for his figure. Surprisingly the bed is empty and the space beside me is cold. My eyes snap open noticing that his clothes have also gone. He hasn't done a runner...has he? Last night was the first time we have had sex...what if he didn't enjoy it, and now that's it? I shake my head brushing away the negative thoughts, knowing Robbie he's probably downstairs making breakfast. Grabbing hold of my creased clothing i throw them onto my naked body carelessly. Tip toeing down the carpet stairs i peer my head over the banister searching around the kitchen- it's empty. "Where the hell is he?" I mutter whilst walking into the kitchen feeling the icy cold tiles make contact with my bare feet. He's actually gone, hasn't he? Feeling used and slightly embarrassed i switch on the kettle before cupping my face. I should of known...god i'm such a fool. Tears spring to my eyes. Why did i even let myself get attached to him? Once the kettle is boiled i make myself a strong black coffee whilst reaching for my mobile from my back pocket. He's got questions which need to be answered. Sitting down at the breakfast table i dial his number. 'Hello this is Rob's phone. Sorry i can't make your call right now, but please leave a message and i'll get back to ya!' Well isn't this just great?! I'm stuck in some random guy's house and i can't even find my shoes! "Fuck it!" Taking a tight grip to my mobile i forcefully throw it against the wall. My hands trail down my face resting against my eyes as i breathe a quiet sob.
5 minutes pass which feels like a life, hearing the front door knocks me off guard. Worry fills through my body causing it to freeze... is it the owner?! "Gaz? Are you awake yet?" Robbie's voice echoes down the hallway. Breathing a sigh of relief i brush away the loose tears before taking a gulp of my coffee. "Gareth Barlow wakey wakey!" He laughs walking towards the kitchen. Once he opens the creaky kitchen door i hear a loud gasp of surprise when he notices me sat at the table. "Fuck! Jesus Christ Gary... almost gave me a heart attack! How long have you been awake for?!" Not moving a muscle i continue to stare at the steam evaporating from my mug. "...Gary?" A hand appears in front of my eyes which causes me to look up. Robbie stands beside me, his quiff has fallen partly over his eyes which the wind has made a little messy, and his cheeks are a little flushed from the coldness outside. "Aah i see... grumpy in the morning eh? Well you wont be after i've cooked you a fry up! If i don't burn it again that is." He moves his lips towards my cheek which i quickly move out of contact. "...wow... you really are grumpy... sure you're ok?"
"I'm fine."
"Very blunt this morning Mister Barlow." He chuckles reaching out to my hand.
"Will you just leave me alone?!" Pushing back my chair i march out of the kitchen heading for the living room, where i stand looking out of the window. Within seconds footsteps follow me even though he hasn't spoken yet i can feel Robbie's presence. I'm over reacting i know, but it's not my fault. He left without saying a word after we slept together... and the fact that this isn't even our house what would of happened if the owner was to come back? God knows how i would of got myself out of that one.
"Gaz...mate...come on... what is it? And don't say nothing... i might not be the brightest person on this planet, but i know there's something upsetting you." A hand strokes along my spine, feeling Robbie's warm touch causes me to surrender.
"You...You left without saying anything..." Quietly i mumble barely audible.
"I went to pick a few things up from the shop... there's nothing in to eat... and i know that you will tell me off if we leave without having breakfast."
"That's not the point Rob... we could of gone together... or you could of at least woke me... i mean... leaving without saying a word after we...er...you know." Sighing softly i bow my head feeling pathetic for overreacting, this isn't like me.
Robbie frowns his eyebrows absorbing my words."When you put it like that... oh Gaz... i didn't think... you were asleep and looked peaceful. I didn't want to disturb you...i don't regret last night... not at all... you made me feel safe..." Wrapping his arms around my waist he pulls me closer. "...I can't thank you enough really." It's almost like i can't control my body as i rest against his chest.
"...You gave me the cold shoulder too...after i asked you that question. How am i meant to take this relationship seriously when it feels like you're hiding something?" Making eye contact with Robbie his eyes quickly avoid mine tightening the grip around me.
"I...I don't know what question that was... i was just knackered last night... it was a long day...that was all."
"Right... seeing as you're awake now are you going to be honest with me? If not...then there's always the door to walk out of and we can break this future album off... the lads will understand."
The room falls silent for at least 5 minutes the only sound which can be heard is the loud ticking of the clock which hangs above the fireplace. "...I can't loose you...and i can't let the lads down...not again... if you can be honest with me...then i'm going to be honest with you... ask away..." As soon as the words leave his mouth i know he instantly regrets saying it.
Taking a deep breath i study his face." You already know that you're the first man i've slept with, but am i the first person you've slept with... the first male...?" Tension fills the room, so thick that it could easily be cut with a knife. It's clear that he's done this before, maybe more than once it's showing all over his face even if he is avoiding eye contact. Why didn't he just say? "...I'm not...am i?"
Massaging his temples like he's smoothing an on coming headache he closes his eyes for a brief moment. "I...i'm going to be honest with you...please...please sit down." Swallowing hard his eyes slowly fix to mine showing sadness. Even though he hasn't told me the story of who yet, already i can sense something doesn't feel right about it.
Wednesday, 1 January 2014
Chapter 14
Gary's POV
Robbie almost drags me upstairs as he keeps a tight grip to my hand. Giggling like school girls we end up in a large room at the end of the house. I don't even get chance to have a quick nose around as my back makes contact against the wall behind me creating a hallow thunk. Our hands collide during the kiss whilst he brushes his finger tips against my palms pinning both of my hands either side of my head to the wall. His hands trail from mine gently stroking my hips deepening the kiss. "Rob..." Softly i whisper once a moan escapes my parted lips with my hands still pressed against the wall almost like they've been nailed there.
"Yes..." His voice vibrates around my ears, as i'm deafened from the surroundings. A small smile forms at the corners of his mouth whilst his hand moves towards my face where a thumb presses against my stubble. A mixture of emotions wash over me mainly nerves and arousal. Robbie seems to be the one taking charge, his tongue slides up and down my neck and his palms are massaging my tensed shoulders feeling sweat trickle down my back. What are we actually doing? Will this make us friend's with benefits? What if none of this works out where will it leave us? All of a sudden my thoughts are blocked when i feel Robbie's teeth sink into my neck sucking onto my pulse point.
"Arghh..." Firmly i close my eyes whilst arching my back against the wall. Robbie falls against my chest continuing to kiss and lick my neck- tasting me. Something hard presses against my stomach which turns me on even more.
Robbie's fingers fumble around my shirt buttons almost tearing it from my back. As soon as i'm shirtless he wraps his arms around my waist pulling me closer towards him, before backing towards the bed where i fall on top of him. Now it's my turn to be in charge. Pinning his hands to the bed i skillfully straddle him, sitting on his lap whilst removing the thin material revealing his inked skin. Just using my tongue i begin to trace the tattoos on his chest starting from his chain then moving down towards his swallows. His sweating palms run from my temples then through my hair. Tickling the hairs on his lower stomach my next mission is to remove his jeans as quickly as possible. Almost like my life depends on it i tear open his fly along with undoing his button before whipping his jeans from his skin. With a breathless moan he kicks them from his ankles along with his boxers allowing his erection to spring free causing me to come eye to eye with it. Watching the younger man squirm under my touch it feels good to be in charge. My cold finger tips trail up his hardened length until i reach the tip where my thumb circles it. "Gary!" Robbie almost chokes just as i cup him before massaging in time with my thumb.
Still keeping my grip around him i mischievously look at him whilst placing a finger into my mouth. Robbie watches my actions, as i sink my finger inside of him. "Mmmhmm.." He moans pushing his head into the pillows and pressing his knees against either side of my cheeks. Enjoying his reaction i add another finger...followed by another widening him before pumping them into a steady pattern. "Fucking 'ell Gaz!" Robbie arches his back clenching around my fingers. Feeling pleased with myself seeing him in the state i've turned him into i slide away my fingers. "God, i want you so bad Gary Barlow..." He groans rubbing his sweaty forehead. Taking a deep breath i crawl up his chest again feeling the hard thumps of his heart pound against my ear.
"Rob... i...this will probably dampen the mood but... i've never done this before...i mean...erm i've had sex before...obviously... but...not with another man..."
"Take all the time you need, Gaz... i don't want to push you... ok? Please relax..." With a calm expression on his face he squeezes my shoulder whilst remaining the same position.
After a few minutes i come to a decision. A decision which makes me surprised with myself. "...Got a condom?" Looking nervous, but slightly calmer i smile softly up at him. Robbie grips the bottom of his lip whilst half smiling at me.
"In my wallet..." Stumbling around i lift up his jeans searching through his wallet for a condom. Whilst pulling out the condom something falls out with it. A small pink tube. Laughing quietly to myself i watch Robbie change positions onto his stomach now. Am i surprised that Robbie Williams carries a tube of lube around in his wallet with him? Of course not. Nothing surprises me with him. Removing my trousers along with my boxers i build myself up enough to secure the condom on. For a minute or two i stare at Robbie who is lying on the bed naked, as the moonlight shines through the gap in the curtains lightening up his perfect muscular body. "Are you ok...?" A smiling face watches me stare at him a few inches away.
"Erm...yeah...was just enjoying the view..."
"Come here..." Robbie holds out a hand into my direction. Walking over to the bed i take hold of his hand which knocks away a few of my nerves, as he gently places kisses on each one of my knuckles. "I love you... do what ever makes you feel comfortable...that's all that matters." Feeling a lot calmer now i get onto the bed, as Robbie rises onto all fours, his head resting against his arms whilst his hands are already gripped to the headboard. My torso presses against his firm back side positioning myself now my hands lock onto his hips.
"...Ready?" Asking with a shaking breath Robbie stays in the same position.
"Uh..huh..."
"If i hurt you...or you don't like it...please say?"
Robbie nods his head slightly giving me the signal. With that i gently place the cold gel inbetween our naked bodies causing Robbie to grit his teeth whilst hissing from the coldness. Very carefully i begin to ease myself inside of him. His muscles tighten and he intakes a deep breath or two. Unable to see his face still i'm unaware whether i'm hurting him or if he's enjoying it. Repeating my actions i bury myself even more into him feeling a hand grab the top of mine which rests still on his hips. Bucking my hips against him i start to create a slow pattern of thrusts. "A..are you...ok? Do...Do you want me to stop?" Biting my tongue i pray in the back of my mind that he's enjoying it as much as what i'm starting to. Sure i've had sex plenty of times, but this time it feels different not just because it's with a man, but it's with my best friend. I don't feel rushed and it actually means something for once.
"N...n...no...please...more...ooooh....i need more..." Loudly Robbie pants lifting his head from the headboard. Obeying his instructions i increase the power of my thrusts slapping against his backside, he rests his head backwards. "....that's it...that it...right there...fuck..." His eyes are closed and his mouth is partly open.
Removing one of my hands from his hips i grip it gently around his throat whilst covering his lips with mine. Getting desperate now Robbie starts to buck his hips backwards in time with my thrusts. Hungrily his tongue begins to dart inside my mouth exploring every inch. "Oh...yes...Rob...this feels good...too good..." Our lips vibrate together as i feel myself twitch slightly inside him. My legs tremble from the building pleasure whilst i move my other hand from his hip replacing it into his hair now grabbing a fist full, as my other hand remains rested around his throat. "Oh...fuck...i...i..." Warning Robbie i pound inside him as fast as i possibly can.
"Give it to me...Gary..." Heavily panting i notice him release onto the bed covers. "OHH FUCK Gaaz....babe." He hisses loudly pulling onto the headboard causing the bed to move an inch or two. Raising my eyebrows a little his words buzz around my ears, did he just call me 'babe'? Still pumping inside him it only takes a thrust or two and i join him finally releasing myself making me see stars which swirl around my head. "Oooooh...R...R...Rob...." I moan whilst shooting my load.
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Laying in the bed together the duvet covers our naked bodies whilst our fingers wrap around one anothers. "...Wow..." Robbie whispers finally getting his breath back after 10 minutes.
"You can say that again..." Shyly i smile over at him. God knows what time it is i look over at the gap which still remains in the curtain noticing it start to get a little lighter. "What did you...er...think?"
"Fucking amazing Gaz... you were just brilliant...thank you..." Nuzzling his nose against my cheek he places a kiss against my sweaty cheek.
"As were you Rob...think your mate will mind that we just had...you know...in his bed..?"
Laughing a little Robbie turns onto his left hand side now facing me with our hands still locked together he stares peacefully. "What he doesn't know...won't hurt him..."
"Love it... oh...and did i hear right...you called me babe?" Grinning slightly i blow away his damp fringe from his eyes.
"...Did i? When?"
"During..."
"Oh...erm..." Robbie's cheeks change into a shade of red, as he bows his head a little with embarrassment.
"Hey..." Placing a finger under his chin i raise his face again so we look into one anothers eyes. Those green eyes give me shivers down my spin, so deep yet so beautiful. "...I loved it..."
"Mmmm..." Cuddling up to me he rests his head and arm against my chest breathing in a sigh of relief.
"Couldn't of asked my first time to go any better to be honest...with a guy that is.."
"I feel special..." Robbie grins placing a single kiss onto my should whilst brushing his thumb against my bicep.
"You are...was it...erm...your first time...too?" I ask whilst clearing my throat. Suddenly i feel tension enter the room from my question. Robbie moves away his head from my chest placing it back onto his pillow. His eyes glance over to the clock which sits beside me on the bedside table.
"Jeez...it's 4am already...we better get some sleep if we want to be up before tomorrow night." He avoids my question closing his eyes quickly before i even get to open my mouth.
"N...Night..." Quietly i whisper feeling slightly awkward...is there something he isn't telling me?
Robbie almost drags me upstairs as he keeps a tight grip to my hand. Giggling like school girls we end up in a large room at the end of the house. I don't even get chance to have a quick nose around as my back makes contact against the wall behind me creating a hallow thunk. Our hands collide during the kiss whilst he brushes his finger tips against my palms pinning both of my hands either side of my head to the wall. His hands trail from mine gently stroking my hips deepening the kiss. "Rob..." Softly i whisper once a moan escapes my parted lips with my hands still pressed against the wall almost like they've been nailed there.
"Yes..." His voice vibrates around my ears, as i'm deafened from the surroundings. A small smile forms at the corners of his mouth whilst his hand moves towards my face where a thumb presses against my stubble. A mixture of emotions wash over me mainly nerves and arousal. Robbie seems to be the one taking charge, his tongue slides up and down my neck and his palms are massaging my tensed shoulders feeling sweat trickle down my back. What are we actually doing? Will this make us friend's with benefits? What if none of this works out where will it leave us? All of a sudden my thoughts are blocked when i feel Robbie's teeth sink into my neck sucking onto my pulse point.
"Arghh..." Firmly i close my eyes whilst arching my back against the wall. Robbie falls against my chest continuing to kiss and lick my neck- tasting me. Something hard presses against my stomach which turns me on even more.
Robbie's fingers fumble around my shirt buttons almost tearing it from my back. As soon as i'm shirtless he wraps his arms around my waist pulling me closer towards him, before backing towards the bed where i fall on top of him. Now it's my turn to be in charge. Pinning his hands to the bed i skillfully straddle him, sitting on his lap whilst removing the thin material revealing his inked skin. Just using my tongue i begin to trace the tattoos on his chest starting from his chain then moving down towards his swallows. His sweating palms run from my temples then through my hair. Tickling the hairs on his lower stomach my next mission is to remove his jeans as quickly as possible. Almost like my life depends on it i tear open his fly along with undoing his button before whipping his jeans from his skin. With a breathless moan he kicks them from his ankles along with his boxers allowing his erection to spring free causing me to come eye to eye with it. Watching the younger man squirm under my touch it feels good to be in charge. My cold finger tips trail up his hardened length until i reach the tip where my thumb circles it. "Gary!" Robbie almost chokes just as i cup him before massaging in time with my thumb.
Still keeping my grip around him i mischievously look at him whilst placing a finger into my mouth. Robbie watches my actions, as i sink my finger inside of him. "Mmmhmm.." He moans pushing his head into the pillows and pressing his knees against either side of my cheeks. Enjoying his reaction i add another finger...followed by another widening him before pumping them into a steady pattern. "Fucking 'ell Gaz!" Robbie arches his back clenching around my fingers. Feeling pleased with myself seeing him in the state i've turned him into i slide away my fingers. "God, i want you so bad Gary Barlow..." He groans rubbing his sweaty forehead. Taking a deep breath i crawl up his chest again feeling the hard thumps of his heart pound against my ear.
"Rob... i...this will probably dampen the mood but... i've never done this before...i mean...erm i've had sex before...obviously... but...not with another man..."
"Take all the time you need, Gaz... i don't want to push you... ok? Please relax..." With a calm expression on his face he squeezes my shoulder whilst remaining the same position.
After a few minutes i come to a decision. A decision which makes me surprised with myself. "...Got a condom?" Looking nervous, but slightly calmer i smile softly up at him. Robbie grips the bottom of his lip whilst half smiling at me.
"In my wallet..." Stumbling around i lift up his jeans searching through his wallet for a condom. Whilst pulling out the condom something falls out with it. A small pink tube. Laughing quietly to myself i watch Robbie change positions onto his stomach now. Am i surprised that Robbie Williams carries a tube of lube around in his wallet with him? Of course not. Nothing surprises me with him. Removing my trousers along with my boxers i build myself up enough to secure the condom on. For a minute or two i stare at Robbie who is lying on the bed naked, as the moonlight shines through the gap in the curtains lightening up his perfect muscular body. "Are you ok...?" A smiling face watches me stare at him a few inches away.
"Erm...yeah...was just enjoying the view..."
"Come here..." Robbie holds out a hand into my direction. Walking over to the bed i take hold of his hand which knocks away a few of my nerves, as he gently places kisses on each one of my knuckles. "I love you... do what ever makes you feel comfortable...that's all that matters." Feeling a lot calmer now i get onto the bed, as Robbie rises onto all fours, his head resting against his arms whilst his hands are already gripped to the headboard. My torso presses against his firm back side positioning myself now my hands lock onto his hips.
"...Ready?" Asking with a shaking breath Robbie stays in the same position.
"Uh..huh..."
"If i hurt you...or you don't like it...please say?"
Robbie nods his head slightly giving me the signal. With that i gently place the cold gel inbetween our naked bodies causing Robbie to grit his teeth whilst hissing from the coldness. Very carefully i begin to ease myself inside of him. His muscles tighten and he intakes a deep breath or two. Unable to see his face still i'm unaware whether i'm hurting him or if he's enjoying it. Repeating my actions i bury myself even more into him feeling a hand grab the top of mine which rests still on his hips. Bucking my hips against him i start to create a slow pattern of thrusts. "A..are you...ok? Do...Do you want me to stop?" Biting my tongue i pray in the back of my mind that he's enjoying it as much as what i'm starting to. Sure i've had sex plenty of times, but this time it feels different not just because it's with a man, but it's with my best friend. I don't feel rushed and it actually means something for once.
"N...n...no...please...more...ooooh....i need more..." Loudly Robbie pants lifting his head from the headboard. Obeying his instructions i increase the power of my thrusts slapping against his backside, he rests his head backwards. "....that's it...that it...right there...fuck..." His eyes are closed and his mouth is partly open.
Removing one of my hands from his hips i grip it gently around his throat whilst covering his lips with mine. Getting desperate now Robbie starts to buck his hips backwards in time with my thrusts. Hungrily his tongue begins to dart inside my mouth exploring every inch. "Oh...yes...Rob...this feels good...too good..." Our lips vibrate together as i feel myself twitch slightly inside him. My legs tremble from the building pleasure whilst i move my other hand from his hip replacing it into his hair now grabbing a fist full, as my other hand remains rested around his throat. "Oh...fuck...i...i..." Warning Robbie i pound inside him as fast as i possibly can.
"Give it to me...Gary..." Heavily panting i notice him release onto the bed covers. "OHH FUCK Gaaz....babe." He hisses loudly pulling onto the headboard causing the bed to move an inch or two. Raising my eyebrows a little his words buzz around my ears, did he just call me 'babe'? Still pumping inside him it only takes a thrust or two and i join him finally releasing myself making me see stars which swirl around my head. "Oooooh...R...R...Rob...." I moan whilst shooting my load.
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Laying in the bed together the duvet covers our naked bodies whilst our fingers wrap around one anothers. "...Wow..." Robbie whispers finally getting his breath back after 10 minutes.
"You can say that again..." Shyly i smile over at him. God knows what time it is i look over at the gap which still remains in the curtain noticing it start to get a little lighter. "What did you...er...think?"
"Fucking amazing Gaz... you were just brilliant...thank you..." Nuzzling his nose against my cheek he places a kiss against my sweaty cheek.
"As were you Rob...think your mate will mind that we just had...you know...in his bed..?"
Laughing a little Robbie turns onto his left hand side now facing me with our hands still locked together he stares peacefully. "What he doesn't know...won't hurt him..."
"Love it... oh...and did i hear right...you called me babe?" Grinning slightly i blow away his damp fringe from his eyes.
"...Did i? When?"
"During..."
"Oh...erm..." Robbie's cheeks change into a shade of red, as he bows his head a little with embarrassment.
"Hey..." Placing a finger under his chin i raise his face again so we look into one anothers eyes. Those green eyes give me shivers down my spin, so deep yet so beautiful. "...I loved it..."
"Mmmm..." Cuddling up to me he rests his head and arm against my chest breathing in a sigh of relief.
"Couldn't of asked my first time to go any better to be honest...with a guy that is.."
"I feel special..." Robbie grins placing a single kiss onto my should whilst brushing his thumb against my bicep.
"You are...was it...erm...your first time...too?" I ask whilst clearing my throat. Suddenly i feel tension enter the room from my question. Robbie moves away his head from my chest placing it back onto his pillow. His eyes glance over to the clock which sits beside me on the bedside table.
"Jeez...it's 4am already...we better get some sleep if we want to be up before tomorrow night." He avoids my question closing his eyes quickly before i even get to open my mouth.
"N...Night..." Quietly i whisper feeling slightly awkward...is there something he isn't telling me?
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